Sunday, February 28, 2010

Diary on 2/28

hello my dear blog,

i think i love to blog lately,
perhaps it is really a good way to express what's in my mind here
happy and unhappy stuffs
also, i'm in bangi now
got nothing better to do lol


Today is the last day of February also, the last day of the chinese new year celebration
I'm glad yesterday i get to meet up with all of you.
If not, i feel that my cny is so empty this year hahaha


Is hard to stay cheerful lately,
i tends to get emo during the night,
not every night of course..

anyhow, life is short, i should just appreciate every moment i have right?
I shouldn't be down and sad all the time =)
let's see when my emotion wil break down again..
i hope i'l be able to stay strong
unless someone is there for me =p

Actually i'm not that bad luck..
I should see things from different perspective
Puiyee gave me a quote on fb

"there's a rainbow behind every dark cloud"

i'm looking forward to see the rainbow,
I believe i'll be fine,
and you'll give me some of your luck right? lol


I'm not too sure what my future will look like,
I'm stucked now
No matter how it'll be, please wish me luck
I'll move on!



also more and more of my friends are starting to work,
All the best to you
I hope we'll still have time to meet and maintain our relationships


XOXO

Friday, February 26, 2010

Life is harsh..
IT IS REALLY HARSH

I seems to have used up all my good luck..
Life doesn't seems to be goin the way i want..


why do i have so many obstacles?
WHY?

WHY MUST I HAVE TO GET THROUGH ALL THIS?

I'M TIRED

Can i take a break?


Can i just walk away and disappaer?


Where had all my luck went?

Sunday, February 21, 2010

I'm an adult..

Working life really can make someone grown up,
and i mean mentally.

I have to admit
i wasn't mature enough
there's alot of things that i dont really know how to handle
and being in the third week of my working life
i can feel myself being more mature
*mentally not physically k? lol
(perhaps physically i do look older now also)

The most obvious change i think is that
I learn to talk with different people!
I'm a rather shy person, lol and i'm stil is a shy person
so having to talk to different people is like one of the main challenge to me
talking to client, seniors, colleagues etc etc
I hope i do speak well or i should say i could say the right thing at the right time
still need some time to learn about it

Working late,
i had my first experience of working til 1am on saturday
It was rather sad havin to work on a saturday while my friends were hanging out together
well, this is the job that i chosen, so i have to bear with it
Driving home at late hour was actually.. a bit fun?
as the road is free from traffic jam.. XD
i actually speed back home =p

And guess what happened today?
My car ran out of battery, and i do mean totally flat
when i was tryin to go home from client place
I have to ask for help..
learning to jump start the car
I actually dont even know how to open the bonet
honestly, i panicked when i cant start my car
and is goin to rain, luckily is not midnight

hahahahah i guess life was abit tough for me lately
is okay, i'll learn from it and grow to be a better person

Yes i'm growing up.. I'm an adult now

Life is full with uncertainty,
I have not decide what's my next step
Continue with my work?
Resign?
Change job?

hahaha i dont know.. as i'm NOT a graduate yet.. sorry for lying..

Thursday, February 18, 2010

untitled

I always think that i'm one lucky girl.
Life have always been going smoothly
and is too good to be true..
so i have been given a different route..

a rough road that i wanted to give up walking
as i cant see the end of it
Someone told me,
there's always a reason for things happening,
perhaps God wanted me to walk a differnet road

accepting it was hard
really hard..
can it be a dream?

whenever i close my eyes, i hope that when i open my eyes
eveyrthing is just a dream..










N-O it wasn't a dream
Wake up please..
Welcome to the real world.
yeah right, welcome to the real world.
what a great timing to know it =(

Sunday, February 14, 2010

I'm a kampung girl

First of all,

Happy Tiger Year !!
Gong hei gong hei~~

Is chinese new year again..
this year, things seems to be kinda different..
Is chu1 night now, and i'm still in Bangi lol
been staying here for 3nights,
thou i wanna go bak kl to go out and have fun
but life here isn't that bad after all

Been having a really simple life,

1. riding bicycle
so so healthy right?
and i was barked by a really fierce dog when passing by someone hse..
my heart was beating so fast when the dog is getting nearer
hahahah havent have experience like this for a really long time..

2. planting tree using cangkul!
been helping to plant trees around the house! lol
with cangkul and spade.. playing with the water, getting dirty..

3. looking at the sky at night
the sky here is alot clearer than kl,
i can see lots of stars.. except when alot of ppl playin firecracker and i cant see it dy lol
really, is relaxing..

I feel like i've back to my childhood.. hahah
when i'm riding bicycle, i closed my eyes for few seconds..
hoping, that i could just suddenly disappeared..
so i can avoid all the problem i'l have to face soon
but when i open my eyes,
nothing seems to change..
i'll have to face the reality soon..
real soon.. hope they'll be able to accept it..
okay, let's put that aside first.
sorry if i spoilt ppl's mood when u're reading this..


Talking about CNY,
i wanna go play akkkkkkk..
date me pleaseeeee..lol
start work den cant play dy la. T______________T

By the way, i didn't mention..
lots of firecrackers can be see here too..
night night also got, hahah
bt it gets annoying when there's too much

That's all for now first..
i need to find something to entertain myself hahaha

May all the best come in the brand new tiger year ^^

also

happy valentines day

Thursday, February 4, 2010

My 'first' job

3daysss.. yup.. i'm officially at work for 3days

How long i'll stay there is still unkown, as i havent fully explore it yet


what had i experienced:



feet is full with bruises, thanks to the so uncomfy heels

smile no matter how u feel, =)

Just do ur best, even is just an easy task

believe tomorrow will be a better day


now i'm stil doing really basic work nia.

trying to adapt to the new environment

anyway tomorrow is Friday!!

excited tim.. hahahahahahha

i hope i'll like my job..


I shall go sleep early, so that tomorrow i'll be having lots of energy to deal with whatever work i have!!!

Nightsssss